What we all crave.

When I was out walking Bella the other morning I was thinking about what makes relationships last? The good ones. The happy ones. Expensive gifts don't make someone feel "special" unless you can really express it in your eyes, words and touch. By listening and responding, laughing and touching. Thoughtful little gifts often mean more because they tell the receiver I was thinking of you. I was thinking of you and want to express appreciation that your in my life.
Last week my daughters were over for dinner on different nights and I was thinking how proud they each make me. They are both beautiful, well-spoken, can tell a great story, have such a beautiful countenances that everyone who meets them likes them. They are also generous and caring. And yet I am so busy with my "momness" that that I neglect to communicate what I am really feeling. Instead of telling them "It was so great to see you tonight!" the last thing they here as they walk out the door is "Watch your step going down the stairs!"
They sometimes remind me how frustrating it is to be treated like a four year old. I cringe when I hear it because it's true. I don't mean to do it but I do. I want desperately to change that. The other night, I watched the movie "When Did You Last See Your Father?" Colin Firth played the part of a son who's father never really let him see how proud he really was of him and it caused the son great anguish and sadness in his life. It was a very sad movie but it touched me in a way that caused me a great deal of self refelction on my own parenting. I want my daughters to see that I actually see them as wonderful and capable adults and that I am very proud of them. I also impressed with what wonderful people they each are. I think they are both beyond fantastic! Of course they are human and they make mistakes and make them again just like I did when I was their age. You'd think that by the time I was 25 or 30 that I'd learned a thing or two, but no it was around that time that I'd only started to really learn life lessons in earnest. The biggest mistakes I've made in my life usually provided much needed wisdom I needed for the next step on my journey. And sometimes that next step or curve in the road led to something wonderful. So why do I expect that they should be any different? They are living their life walking in their own path just as I did and am doing mine.
My mother passed away just a week before I was 21. She was not the kind of overprotective mother I turned out to be because her mother, my grandmother was. (maybe it skips generations?) When my mom walked in the door from visiting across town my grandmother would call just to make sure she made it home OK. IT DROVE MY MOTHER CRAZY! If my mother had been around when I was a new mother I am quite sure she wouldn't have been worrying about my mothering skills with babies. But I am pretty certain that when I was worried about letting them ride their bikes up to the local Quik Stop three blocks away she would have said, "Let them go for heaven sake!"
Watching your kids bikes go around that corner where you can't see them. Not for the faint of heart. I did it, and not always with the greatest of ease or grace. If I could go back in time I would have said, "Have a great ride!" I want to learn to tell them to "Have a great ride on this journey of life" and that I can express to them that I believe them to be very capable adults that I am very pleased to know.

Required Reading for the Fashionista

I just finished reading: Deluxe: How Luxury Lost Its Luster by Dana Thomas. I was fascinated from page one and devored every word. You'll read about the humble beginnings of Louis Vuitton to what luxury is today and how has it evolved over the decades. Meticulously written and researched, Thomas' weaves the history of luxury into a golden spun yarn, a delicious and lively read.

The Tower Cafe

On Tuesday I had lunch with a friend at the Tower Cafe after we watched a movie at the Tower Theater. The outdoor seating area is like an oasis-it is lush and green and a really nice place to enjoy your meal. The service is relaxed and friendly and the food is really good! I went a little early so I could sketch before my friend arrived. I knew the minute I saw it that I wanted to sketch and paint this fountain.

Rainy day cooking

It's raining here today and pretty quiet. I made Heather Van Vorous' "Rainy Day Lemon & Ginger Tea". I make it about twice a week - I drink a cup hot and chill the rest. It's the most refreshing drink cold and very comforting hot. Perfect for a rainy day! I also made Heather's "Roasted Cauliflower Soup" - but left out the caraway and cumin seeds and kept it simple on the seasonings using 1/2 t. thyme leaves and a bay leaf. I had some pizza dough that I rolled out and sprinked with a little olive oil and Sea salt with Mediterranean Seasonings (spices garlic, lavender, rosemary and basil oil). Just before serving I sprinked a little smoked paprika and a few drops of truffle oil on the soup. Yum! Good comfort food day!

Great Ball Jars of Strawberry Freezer Jam!

Last weekend I was in Whole Foods looking at some delicous looking strawberries when the woman standing next to me mentioned she had been coming every week to the store for these strawberries because they were so good. That did it! My indecision was over and I bought 3 baskets! I tasted a few when I got home and decided I'd make these babies last by making Strawberry Freezer jam.
Years ago I'd made it and remeber it being unbelievably fresh tasting. It truely elevated toast to some heavenly morning dessert. It would also be wonderfull as a filling in a Victorian sponge cake, or stirred into yogurt.
Checking the recipe I realized I didn't have any fruit pectin...why would I? I haven't canned or frozen anything in years-but I remebered this freezer jam was pretty easy. So off to the store to buy fruit pectin. I found the pectin, but there were several kinds. I noticed No Cook Freezer Jam Fruit Pectin made by Ball @ $1.99. No Cook? That got me thinking this could be easier than I had first anticipated. How often does that happen?
I just follwed the directions on the package...
I washed and hulled & crushed my strawberries till I had the required 4 cups. Next you mix the package of the no cook fruit pectin with 1 1/2 cups sugar, and then add the 4 cups crushed strawberries and stir for three minutes. Next, you ladle jam into Ball's 8 ounce plastic freezer jars (which I happen to already have). You could use other plactic jars but the Ball jars are so cute and I love how the lids twist on. You let it set for 30 minutes and freeze, or you can use it right away. Which I did promptly! (on toast) Did I mention this elevates the toast experience to a new level? Keeps in the fridge for up to 3 weeks or in the freezer for up to a year. I guarantee that stuff will not be in my freezer for long. This was so easy that I may just have to go crazy and make more more more! You can also do this with other tender type fruits: apricots, cherries, berries, grapes, pears, plums). You can also watch a video demonstration at: www.freshpreserving.com

Superbowl Sunday

We're making Mark Bittman's Tri-Tip Steak with Tomato Romesco (aka "The Minimilist" on the NYTimes website) . I have made quite of few of the recipes Mark demonstrates each week with great results!

For a side I am making Marinated Chickpea and Arugula Salad from the book "Mediterranean Summer" by David Shalleck. "Just put a chef on a yacht on the Riviera and you have a book sized vacation...an escapist story that comes with recipes and practically generates its own sea breeze." -New York Times
I was completely engrossed in this book and the recipes he shares helped me re-create the feeling I got as I read about David's Mediterranean adventures.